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Why are each of the pears in [little white styrofoam] straightjackets?

Maybe they are crazy...

I bet they really don't care.

It's their pear-ogative.

want.
that is all.

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Sunny,
yesterday my life
was filled with rain.
Sunny,
you smiled at me and
really eased the pain.

Now
the dark days
 are done and
the bright days
 are here,

my sunny one shines
so sincere.
Sunny
one so true,
I love you.

Sunny,
thank you for the
sunshine bouquet.
Sunny,
thank you for the
love you brought my way.
You gave to me
your all and all,
and now I feel
ten feet tall.

Sunny
one so true,
I love you.


Sunny (Sunny),
thank you for the
truth you've let me see.
Sunny (Sunny),
thank you for the
facts from A to Z.

My life was torn
like windblown sand,
then a rock
was formed
when we held hands.

(Sunny) Sunny
one so true,
I love you.

Sunny (Sunny),
thank you for that
smile upon your face.
Sunny (Sunny),
thank you
thank you for that
gleam that flows with grace.

You're my
spark of nature's fire,
you're my
sweet complete desire.
(Sunny) Sunny
one so true,
yes,
I love you.

Sunny (Sunny),
yesterday oh my life
was filled with rain.

Sunny (Sunny),
you smiled at me and
really really eased the pain.

Now
the dark days
are done and
the bright days
are here,

my sunny one
shines so sincere.
(Sunny) Sunny
one so true,
I love you.
I love you (Sunny)
I love you (Sunny)
baby I love you (Sunny)

yeah

really disappointed
in myself.

It's this:
In previous relationships
bad things would happen
and I would develop
defenses against them.

We return to current life
already in progress:

Amy will say something
I will misinterpret
the something
 as an attack
so I'll unleash my defenses
and
to her
it'll be
where did that
 come from?

It is as if
on some level
I'm trying to sabotage this.
I am
an awesome person
I deserve
an awesome relationship

so
What the frak?

Amy and I got

lowest scores

at her company's

bowling party.

 

Amy told me going in

that she usually gets

the lowest score

 when bowling

 

I would like to say

that I intentionally

got the lowest score

in order to

allow her

to not feel comfortable

 about her bowling score

 

Yep, I sure would like to say that

However, that would be a lie.

 

You know that thing

where the eye and the hand,

they coordinate?

Eye-hand coordination

 I think they call it?

Yeah.

That has been known

to elude me.

 

 

Anyway, Shelley has invited us

to go contradancing tonight.

 

"A contra dance

 is like an amusement park ride

 we make for ourselves."

  - unknown

 

Both of us have done it before.

and I've had a pretty good time before.

(though I did sometimes

zig when I was supposed to zag

or step to a rhythm not related to

the one laid down by the live band.)

 

It might be lots of fun.

 

I'm kind of tired,

so I hope

 we both

 feel well enough

to go